Soon

Does anybody know Thumbelina?
Does it ring any bell to you?

Well, I just googled it and I found more information about it :P
The last time I watched this was back in junior high... I think.
A 1994 movie, fairytale from Hans Christian Andersen.

Basically, a children movie has beautiful songs, I admit it, I love them.
And for this movie, enjoy most of the songs.
But one particular song hit me when I accidentally stumbled on Youtube.

It's when the mother sang, she missed Thumbelina so much.
The evil toad kidnapped her, pervert toad!

I know that someone somewhere 

Someone's sure to find her soon 

After the rain goes there are rainbows 

She'll find her rainbow soon 

Soon my breaking heart will mend 

Soon a happy ending 

Troubles behind her I will find her 

Homeward bound, safe and sound 

And soon

It's short, but it just hit me right in the heart.
What can I say, an unconditional love from a mother.


Hint, the title of the song reflects me at this moment :)

I love you Mom

For my friend

Another blue morning, another rambling to write.
Bear with me.

I had a convo with my friend few days ago.
It was pleasant, because he is one of the people whom I can talk to about anything.
I know him and he knows me, err... we know each other.
The good side.
and even the evil side of us, yeah we know it, and we don't care how evil we are.
Nobody's perfect! Accept it!

I like talking to him, well for few things.
It feels comfortable, I don't know why at the beginning.
We kinda understand each other, which is good, both of us need someone whom we can talk to.
Now I realised that I'm more comfortable in telling stories to a friend rather than to family, it's somewhat true.

Well, for you.
Thank you for listening, even though I kinda bothering you with my stories and my worries.
You listened even though I caught you through skype or whatever at night, or even in the morning.
Thank you for somewhat commenting, you're not criticizing, that's what I like about you.
Thank you for being a good friend.

A letter with love, but not a love letter, especially for Faadiya Nurrahma

Hi there, I do hope you read this.
If you don't understand most of the things I wrote here, well... sorry, cause I feel more comfortable writing this way, so bear with me okay? :)
This is mostly from the bottom of my heart, it's not all of it, cause it'll take me ages to write it all out.

Okay, my lil sister.
Happy birthday.
You're not little anymore, you're bigger than me, really.
And that made my love for you is bigger as well.
You're the funniest young lady I've ever know, you're one of my fuel in life.
You made me cry, hate, but most of them are laugh.

You're teenager now, but still you're my little angel in my heart.
With puffy cheeks, protruded chin, and big puppy eyes.
You're still hugable and snuggable person ;)
There are times where you disappointed of me, and I am so sorry.
You always say, I miss you Teh, but I'll just say, awww...
But the truth is, I miss you too.
I do, I wanna take you to somewhere nice, have fun, like any sisters do.
But because of my choice to study abroad, we never have that kind of experience.
However, whenever I come home, even for few weeks, I will make it up to you.
Let's go to cafes, restaurants, or any place you want.

I know you're ill at this moment, but don't give up okay?
Even though I'm not there with you, but I'm here whenever you need me.
I'll support you, you know that right?
I may not the best-est sister in the world, but you are to me.

Teteh kangen dan sayang Faadiya.  Muahhhh...
Selamat ulang tahun.
Semoga impiannya tercapai, sukses, sehat, dan bahagia selalu ya Dek.
Jangan lupa solat, berdoa, dan belajar.

Teh Miril

my mistake

I consider myself as a one lucky young lady.
No emptiness I feel during the day, yeah I'm living apart from my family but so what?
It will happen to you sooner or later.


Money matter, I manage the outcome... apart on holiday :P
School, errr... I'm not the brightest student, I know people who are, but others sees me as one.
Friends, I have, don't worry :) well the closest one is living in other city, well bless her to hear my random ramblings.
Income... I had one before for the summer, and they still needs me sometimes.  So yeah I have a random(?) income if I can say it that way.
Family, we still keep in touch and they are always there for me.


The thing is, this is my own problem so if you feel the same way, please don't.
The thing is I, most of the time, forgot to say thank you for having these privileges.
To whom? To Allah, Allah gives and showers me with blessing.
But I forgot to say thank you, I just smiled widely like an idiot when I receives them.
Is it hard to say alhamdulillah my dear Ami? No, not at all.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord of the 'Alamîn


I heard about, if you say thank you, the one who gives you advantages will give you more.
I believe that, it's just sometimes human forgets easily, we forget things.


I'm so sorry if I forgot to say those words.
alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
because I remember to say it.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
for everything...


Allah's love are uncountable, believe that.

Thank you for the night Guys

I woke up at 9pm-ish yesterday, yeah I went to sleep at 6pm so what?
Okay, I had a slight headache... a huge one I guess, I wobbled on my way to toilet because of that.
Well, time went by quite fast then I got this phone call from my friend.
He asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and this guy, and I was like 'uuu why not? I need a fresh air anyway.'

Yeah I spent a good half hour to prepare and had lil rest till he called me again to meet up in centrum.
I swore I was like... tipsy while I biked there, I couldn't ride on a straight line.
I wished no police will stop me and ask me questions.
Anyway, I arrived safely and met them in a cafe.  I sat down with them, ordered a drink, and laughed our asses off about stuff.

When the other guy went to the toilet, I had this conversation with my friend about our 'promise'.
I emphasized that WE HAVE TO DO IT or else... well, it's nothing illegal, don't worry.  I just need a friend to talk to.
He was like 'yeah why not, I'll prepare everything, you just come in and we'll have a chat.'
Then he said something that really hit me.
'Once I was talking with X (our other friend), we talked about random things and ended up talking about you.'
I said, 'O yeah? Like how?'
'Yea we said something about, 'if you talk about what we are talking about right now to Ami, she's probably already knows about it', like that.'
'Uh huh.'
'And I said to X, 'yea you know what? She knows about everything here, even she knows the real me, cause I told her everything'.'
'True.'
'And then we said something in common.'
'Spill it Bro.'
'We said 'yea she knows about everything, but none of us knows about her'.'
That made me think, that's so true.

I know about people, some people that I never even met, I know slight about them.
I overheard from someone or even they accidentally spill out the beans to me, I know about it.
But none of them knows about me.
They enjoyed about me being their recycle bin or whatever they like to call it.
But I'm okay with that, I'm a listener.  A total listener.
I prefer to listen other people bragging about their life, I prefer being their shoulder to cry on when their life is a bitch, and I accept their blabbering about random stuff.
I accept those.
After that I'm thinking, 'I do have problems myself, but by listening to these... I consider my problems are not as huge as yours.' this is what I always think about.

I keep my problems to myself cause I don't want to burden people to listen to it.
Maybe also because I don't want any critics about how I should live my life, etc.
Yeah basically I'm a listener, that's it.
If you want to know about me, you should work hard for me to open my mouth.
Cause I dare you to listen to it, I think any normal person won't be able to handle my life story.
No one... I think.

So yeah, that night went well.
After had something to drink, we went to eat kebab and talked trash about stuff.

Thank you Guys, this is what I need right now, people to hang out with.
We might talked shit about ourselves, and might hurt each others feeling.  But after that, we totally forgot about it.
So what?

O! And I found that I was able to bike on a straight line after that, weeheee...

Can't wait for our 'promise', okay Friend?

HELLO?

SHINEE, they said hello.
Girls out there, I don't care whether you're single or not, answer them! QUICK!

Open your door!
Cause maybe JongHyun will come with... that box on his hands... I'm not sure what that is but yeah :P
Maybe TaeMin will give you a hand-made paint doll... I guess that is though.
Maybe Key will give you A RING! O MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME KEY???
Or! Maybe it's MinHo with a BIG white teddy bear and his oh-so-cool car that will drives you anywhere you want :) ermm, a place where you can register your marriage maybe :P

BUT maybe Onew will come with flower, which I'll gladly accept it.  Period, no excuses.  Really I will.
Onew, it doesn't matter if you only bring flowers to me.  I don't care I accept you.
Even more, if you come to me empty handed, I'll accept you, who you really are.  Peace out Boy.
And just so you know, the door where he was going to knock... is my door :P
haha kidding.

They look oh-so-cute in the MV... reminiscence of nuna nomu ippo.
Where they were so lovable and huggable and snuggable :D
What I also like is they are smiling... awww I'm melting.
I can't help but smile as well, especially to you-know-who ;)

There's nothing wrong with Shinee.

They are talented, period.

They are talented boys who sings and dances in front of our faces and make us grin from ear-to-ear.

So, yeah, I'll give your hello to the Shinee boys :D

Spazzing-mode-on... like really.

Never expected to be fangirl-ing over them

I'm in a spazzzzzzzzzz mode!
I was lurking around, well not really, I was watching We Got Married Chuseok Special, where the 3 idol couples are competing with each other to find who's the strongest(?).
Well, before that I was like... hmm, WGM... yea, whatever.
To be honest, I used to like WGM, especially when it was Alex and Shin Ae.  They both are beautiful, sweet man and strong wife together... made ma d'aawwwww all the time.
Now, since they changed the format, it doesn't really appeal to me.

Ehm, after watching that special episode, I kinda hooked with this couple.

Yeap, KhunToria.

Thank you to my little sister who is telling me to download their episodes.  That encourage me to googling and find websites to streaming online.

I watched their first episode though, and I thought that Nickhun was quite... fake.
He was too kind, too nice, and too cute to be a man. That's purely my opinion though, don't kill me or anything.

And now... dun dun dun, they're cute couple. Period.
I love Victoria, she's a girl next door type, friendly older sister, and funny.  O, and she scared easily, she can yell her lungs out and make your eardrums go damn wild.
I cracked up whenever I watch her on WGM or Invisible Youth, she's well random at times and really entertain us.

Nickhun... well he's cute, so cute.  He has big round eyes... a puppy eyes that you cannot resist.
Tall, build, and I hope well mannered man.  So, yeah, definitely a husband type kind of man for me.
His shocked expression is funny for me.  Mainly because Victoria randomness.

They both foreigners in a country, they both are not native speakers, they are entertainers, and now they're 'married'.  It just too cute to be true.
I even replay their episodes, and smiled like an idiot while watching them.  Oo my life...

Nickhun is playful, likes to tease Victoria, especially because they way she speaks.
So, yeah you go girl, he deserves a hit on the head! Bad mackerel!

For a new couple in WGM, I think that they have more skinship than other pairings.
And it looks natural for me, AND makes me jealous.

I just want to capture this.  Hahaha.

I love their couple hoodie here... well, you can't really see it but it has ears on its hood.
I WANT IT SOOOO BAD, especially for this fall, yeah huh.





Okay, maybe because of their looks it also encourage me to support them more.
Damn this world with good looking people!
Nah, I think, there's nothing to be hated about them, so I want to see them more in WGM.  Or even in real life, who knows? :P
Even so, I'll support them wholeheartedly.  Don't worry.

In the end, I just want to say, they're lovable.
And they succeed in entertain viewers.  And for that I give them thumbs up.
Best wishes for their success.

In one of their episode, I liked the song 'I'm in love' by Narsha.
It's a sweet song, you should check that out in my MIXPOD.
I think this represent what they are showing in the show.  They falls in love.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...

Don't worry about me and go away

I'm not a big fan of 2NE1, especially when SHINEE came into my life :P
ONEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...
Ehmmm, I know that their style is different than other idol girl groups out there, and that's what makes them loved.

Well, they just made a comeback with 3 new songs, yes three... at the same time.
If you follow KPOP nowadays, they're so into autotunes.  Not all of them, but most of them.  And I personally hate it.  Sorry T-Pain.


2NE1 has 'Clap Your Hands', 'Can't Nobody', and 'Go Away'.  Hmm, to be honest, I like one out of three.  Better than nothing eh?
Those are good songs, I like 'Clap Your Hands''s choreo, when they clap their hands... yeap, and catchy reff part as well.
In 'Can't Nobody'... I like the MV, they look so damn fierce and I like it, thumbs up.  Their style, cool things in the MV, yup! Not really fond of the song though, cause autotunes much, o! except Minzy's part.

"Cuz I’m so bad bad

But I’m so good good

Yeah I’m so bad bad

And I’m so hood hood!"

and she shook her thang in the MV... you go Gurl!

I just realize she's younger than me... world turns upside down at the moment -.-

Personally I love 'Go Away', not the MV but the song itself, I even surprised myself!

This happened after I watch the live version on Inkigayo, and I really love the choreo!

People dances around and then dances in sync? yumm...

And they looks like having fun on stage, that's what I like about it.

They don't have to look cute, or sexy, they just being themselves and have fun with the backup dancers.

O, and they have cure backup dancers as well! I heard that they're twins 0.o

Can't find the best cut for the other guy though :P, isn't he looks like a mannequin here?

Thumbs up for this performance.

If you haven't watched it, please do, it's a recommended performance.

And ow! I forgot to mention the fierceness of the song, well actually CL said 's***' a lot but who cares.  Especially 

Pretending like you’re more sad

Pretending you’re cool to the end

All you do is act a fool

You ain’t shit without your crew

Yo Gurl, you're hot as fire!!!

The things is, I like 2NE1, as a group they're unique and deserve title of performers.

They can dance and sing, basically entertain us.

They are talented, period.

But, sometimes I think each member should be given opportunity equally.

Like Bom, her voice is great, she's a good singer, but she always given a chorus part.  Why YG?

And Dara, she's a decent singer... I think, but her voice is always got autotuned.  Too bad.

But, as whole, 2NE1 is one of the best KPOP group nowadays.

No doubt about that.

WIMP!

that's what I have to say about certain people,
like O my God give them more spirit or something to do more -.-

you, yes you, WIMP!

Kan iemand mij helpen... ?

To be honest until next week will be my busy week.  Am I loving it? Are you kidding me? O my God I love it so much, no deny on that.
I love being busy, so I have reason to do something; such as, not being at home, or won't do particular activity.

But for, it's even encourage me to do something more than I expected.
When I believe that I won't be able to do, but hey, I can.
Alhamdulillah :)

Do I need help from someone? inshallah I can manage, thanks.

Busy day

I don't mean to show-off or anything, but this is the truth.  I am busy, I am.
Especially this week, I don't know about next weeks but yeah, I can imagine that.

my basic schedule, ehem!
I have class from 3pm till 5pm, okay that's mandatory, I can't go anywhere at that time.
Well this morning (at 10am) I went to centrum and visited one restaurant to discuss about something. Then I am here now, in the library, sitting still until my ass dozes off.
Right after class, I have to go to Indonesian restaurant and offer them our space in next Saturday event, okay maybe it'll take less than one hour, I hope.
Cause at 6pm, or before that, I have to attend this registration event by Indonesian embassy. Uh huh.
It'll go on until 8pm, and I hope I CAN go out before that, because at 8pm I have skype meeting with KPU to discuss about PPI Belanda meeting this Saturday.
But! I have to be at small discussion about the Saturday event's design right after the registration thing-y.
Oh my...
At night, around 11pm here, I promised my aunt to skype with her... oo I hope the other skype meeting ends before that though.

I really hope for the best today, and the rest of the week.
Cause I know I'll be busy like, are you kidding me? o my God give me time to rest!
so yeah, inshallah.

No fun

If I have to eat breakfast, lunch, or dinner by myself, I won't eat rice. No.  I never cook and eat rice for myself while I'm here.
When I tell my friends about this, they were like 'you're Asian right? you're Indonesian right?'
People! yes I am, I know my root, I respect my root, so what if I don't eat the same way as they are?

Cooking, in my opinion, is involve cutting, frying, and adding seasoning.  So I rarely cook for myself.  I prefer to eat bread or make jacket potato, cause it's easier and quick.
Open the wrapping or stab them with fork and put in the microwave for 7 minutes... voila! you have food in front of you now.  Put butter, tuna, and mayo on top if it.  Yo, dit is lekker!

Well, if I have a meeting or gathering with other Asian friends, yes I will cook.  I won't starve them, I don't want their parents call me at night and blame me for their weight-loss children.

I believe the last time I cook for my friend is mie ayam jamur, and to be honest I'm proud of myself.  Cause I never cook at home, and at that time I cooked for my friends.  Guy friends, who has big stomach and can fill it up for more than 2 portions.  So yeah, it was good, they told me :)

And the last time I cook for myself is ati ampela goreng kecap, and I was like, Gurl... you haven't loose your touch.  I made it more than twice... I know it's not healthy but I can't help it! it's too good to be missed!

I thought to myself, I can cook though, but why I don't want to cook? and I think I know why know.

I was watching this Korean movie; a tear-jerker, heart-wrenching, and fist-clencher movie; the mother lives alone after her husband passed away.  The daughter, who has her own family, curious why her mom eat kinda unhealthy food.  She was like 'why are you eating these things? you can cook for yourself'.  Her mother's answer made me nod my head and quoted it in my twitter, she said :

That's so true.

Sharing and giving is love.  Seeing others who eat the food happily gives me smile.  I prefer to eat together with friends and family, and share it.  I won't think twice in order to share my food or spend some money on it.  Money may become less, but I believe I gain more that advantageous for my after-life.  Inshallah, amin.

Shady girl

Well, in K-POP world, we all know that the title of the song is using English, most of the time.
Sometimes it makes me shivers, cause knowing their way of talking in English is quite... different than others.

There's this girl group named SISTAR, I never pay attention to them, didn't really care, didn't even bother to try listen to their songs, etc, whatever.

But then I read AKP and there was an article about their new song, Shady Girl.  And I remembered there was a line that said 'this is a must-have-song-in-your-mp3!!'
I was like, yeah sure I'll try, why not? That was like my first time agreeing what AKP suggested, thanks Guys.

The song and choreography is cute, no auto-tunes (thank goodness for that), colourful outfit and MV, etc.  It tells about how 'fake' the girl is in front of the boy; she cleans up, pretend to be afraid, and other fake things.
What I like about the song is it shows the vocal power of the leader's voice, especially.  When I watched the MR video, I was stunned, they can really sing while jumping around in those heels and short skirts! Especially after BoRa rap part or every time HyoRin sings.
*thumbs up for the girls
I told my sister to watch the MV, cause Heechul is in it :P
Plus, I love the hoodies that they wore at the MV, it's colourful~

The song is really catchy and really liven your mood.
I didn't realize that I sing along when I'm listening to it, cause it's quite easy to follow :D
Well, I'm still in a stage where I like them because of the song, so I haven't really look deep into their members.  All I know know is their names only.  If they have another song that pulls me harder, I'll look them up more, and I bet it'll be interesting to see.

The thing is, there are a lot of idol group right now.  You can't just love them all at the same time.  I hope that they will have more attractive songs that interest people more, not just a one-hit-wonder.

Found it!!

I was just lurking around AlbertHeijn centrum today and I found this!
maybe it's an old stuff here but just now I looked at Pringles section.

I was like 'O my God, it's been ages! hello my old friend!'
I tried to reminisce my times back in England, it was sick
in a good way :)

Salt and vinegar... yummm, then cheese and onion comes second
Yeayyy!!!

It's not healthy but yeah, just once in a while won't kill you right?

you're my friend :)

Okay, to be honest the title that I thought before was 'boyfriend/girlfriend'
I don't know why I'm writing about this but, yeah, I'll try to type all the things that comes up into my mind about this matter.

In the crowd that I hang out with, being in a relationship is a common thing
every time I meet up with an old friend, he or she will ask about my current status,
or 'do you have boyfriend?'

Hmm, I would love to just tape their mouth shut, cause it's irritating in some way
do I need to have that?
does it necessary?
do I need to have a boyfriend in order to make proud of myself?
the answer is a big NO, thanks.

Okay maybe in some times I feel, wow will I be happier and content if I have boyfriend by my side?
I was then shook my head.
Yes I feel a tug in my heart when I see my couple friends, they look so happy, lovey-dovey, and sometimes look idiot... in my eyes :P
I never been in official relationship so I don't know what will happen to me, will I look like them as well?
the thing is, it never crossed in my mind, having that kind of relationship

Yes I have male friends,
when I get closer to them, I prefer being their sister.
knowing what they are, how they are, so yeah an-addition-to-my-brother-list :P

Funny thing is even my family kinda encourage me to have a boyfriend
I was like 'Mom...'
except my dad and my brother, I think
they never said anything about that, and I bet they don't really like that idea
they'll scream their lungs out
cause I'm like miles away from them, I'm a girl, no family around me, and being in a relationship?... no, thanks

Are there any guys that came to me? well it's a secret :P
but in the end, all I say is 'you're my friend'

Confession of a girlfan... well, nuna-fan

Help! I got Shinee-fied!!!

lol and I'm not complaining

they are just so... lovable

they can dance, like wow

they can sing, thumbs-up for their vocals; JongHyun and Onew... nice job Boys

and they're... cute

the difference between Western and Eastern male is, for me, that Westerners looks... rough,

they have rough edges

while Easterners are more soft (?)

sorry if it came out the wrong way :P

well going back to Shinee, yes they're are something for me

this Korean idol group really brightens my day

I listen to their song every day

if I have a bad mood I'll just focus myself to their dance videos for a couple of minutes and a grin appear afterwards :D

my favourite member,

hmm that's quite difficult

but the most lovable out of five is Onew

he's... well, he's... I don't know how to describe him though

his voice is oh-my-God-I-think-my-heart-melts-every-time-he-sings; he'll do a musical soon so best wishes for him :)

his smile is so-damn-cute, I just want to pinch his cheeks every time he smiles, and addicting... to see ;)

he can dance, yeah it's an idol must-be-able-to-do-list

he's cute, can I say this more than once?

cute and cute

I even smiled like an idiot while typing this :D :D :D

see? can anybody cuter than this? *blush + grin

They had this show, Hello Baby
and I swear Onew is cuter than the baby ;D

basically if you see Shinee, you'll love them

and when you see Onew... you'll love and adore them even more

*blush again

Enjoy 'love like oxygen', 'nuna, neomu yeppo', and last but not least is 'lucifer' like I do

cause they have sick dance routine in those

love them even more, cause they can pull them off greatly

pheewww, enough for my rants

cause I can write whole lot more but I won't disturb your view and mind about this particular group

so in the end, I'm just a girl :D yeayy!!

blabbering

wow, yeah I know it's been ages (again) since my last visit here

I hope you're all fine, inshallah

well, ermm, we just finished our holy month, Ramadan

it was... fast for me, I don't know why but it was

even though we did it suring the summer, but it wasn't hard, alhamdulillah

well I hope Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta'ala bless our prays and fasts :)

summer, sunshine = happy (?)

whoever created this relation should be thinking twice

yeah I know the weather urge you to go out and have fun

but if we're outside too long, something unpleasant will happen

that's what I believe :P

summer ends,

rains and dark clouds greeting us with their humble presence

I prefer them, I do

even though, yes it's difficult to bike when they are around

but. hey. that's life

life with it

embrace it

love it

these are just random thoughts that came up to me tonight

I was just scribbled down my assignment and then, hey how's my blog doing? :)

and it's doing fine

alhamdulillah

rough night

I didn't know what exactly happened that night,

either I ate too much or I ate something wrong, God knows

but I literally threw up everything that I ate

food, fruit, even water

I swallowed a tablet, but I threw up right away

It was hard to close my eyes and go to sleep

because I knew in few minutes I will use the toilet again

vomiting or defecating

I think last night I took over the toilet for myself

thank God my room is near the toilet though -.-

I dirtied my clothes and my hair when I threw up

so I took a warm shower after that

but tooooo bad my headache became too obvious to handle

it was hard for me to fall asleep, again

bad choice Ami, bad choice -.-

*shakes head

I really didn't know what to do

I mean, right now I'm fine, I feel a lot better

but I don't know why... I don't know what I did o.0

I stayed up until God knows when

I drank warm milk, I thought it was gonna make me throw up again, but it didn't

alhamdulillah :)

I mean, when I drank water, a plain water, I threw up

then warm milk? hmmm, I think that's not a good choice Ami

but whaddaya know :) I was okay

Maybe because I was tired, I didn't realised that I fell asleep

I woke up with a slight headache and fever

but I was okay, I felt a lot better :)

It was one of my rough night

I won't forget it, until God knows when :)

but, yeah, I learned something, of course

health is important thing

especially when you live far away from your family a.k.a alone

don't be a cheapskate when it comes to health

no no no Gurl

Right now I'm fine

so, I can do my old schedule for the week :)

I say 'i', you say 'kea'... wallet... huh???

Well, I scratched something out of my must-to-do-or-else-you'll-regret list

(nah, who am I kidding? I don't have this :P)

in order to make my room, more, comfortable... I have to buy things that I need

But! I have to make the list first :)

so I won't forget anything when I get there

hmm, let's see... pillow, blanket, knives, bladibladibla...

aaahh screw that and let me go!

It was a nice morning :)

the sun was bright, kinda windy though but it was oookay

we had lunch there and it drove me head over heels :P

salmon with cheese sauce (?), carrots, and... what was it? hash brownies with broccoli?? lekker...

o yeah, and free coffee as well, thanks Xi

Yes I bought a lot, I spent... quite a lot

but it was worth it

I hope though... -.-

Okay, is it (too) silly to lost your wallet which you hold onto?

I mean, yeah, I had it on my right hand

I kinda put it on my jacket's right pocket

I found what I wanted to buy

tralalala...

I was on the line, and then DUN DUN DUN

'yo... where's my wallet?'

I LOST IT

o.0

where art thou, my brown-pink wallet?

are you leaving me cause I stuffed you with coins and bons?

is it because I spend most of the time with my cellphone rather than with you?

o my monkey wallet...

how can I live without...

'Yo, I saw some lady gave that wallet to one of the workers'

0.o

thank goodness for honesty

alhamdulillah I found it... it was stored in some storage room (already)

thank you all who helped me :)

Note to self : put the wallet in your bag, PLEASE

Oh, what a day

I bought what I need

temporary lost of what's important to me

and, damn right, I'm sleepy right now -.-

Random facts; I love listen to 'superhuman' at the moment :)

i wonder if it's true...

I randomly lurked on the biggest net forum in Indonesia

(you know what I mean :P)

and I stumbled on this thread, about sleeping pattern

which time is good, bad, best sleeping position, etc.

And I read something about, don't sleep at certain time

cause you'll lose half of your consciousness

I was like, hmm... interesting

cause I knew that we are forbid to sleep at that time, but I didn't know anything about this

So long story....... I ended lounging on my bed

it was comfy, but cold cause it was raining outside and the heater wasn't on -.-

then...... I fell asleep

I had weird dreams (emphasis on the dreams)

I cannot say it cause it related to my friends, well... weird stuffs about them -.-

I feel sooo tired now, even when I was typing this I wasn't fully conscious

and also something weird happened

I believed I was in a deep sleep, very very deep

but I heard this knocking sound from outside

couple of times, and each time I could literally counted how many he or she did it

my room is next to the front door (the only room), so I was thinking... why don't they knock at my window to notice that somebody is outside?

I got up, tried to find my glasses and my hairpin, I stumbled along the way cause my eyelids were heavy to find my slippers

When I got out, nobody was there

I believe I heard it, very clearly, as clear as I listen to Dolby Surround Sound

it took me few minutes to realize the situation and my poor condition

(messy hair, wore slippers in vice-versa way, etc)

I wonder...

I checked the time and it was, few, minutes before 6 pm

I was like... I wonder if 'something' woke me up to prevent this further

cause my alarm is sucks anyway, I am never wake up cause of my alarm

it could be, right? who knows?

well, I believe Allah knows it, very very well

I was like, subhanallah... alhamdulillah I could still awake and do what I have to do

Whatever that was, I am grateful

I won't do it again... inshallah

One of my weird experience abroad

I won't forget it and, of course, I learnt something from it

P.S : what a beautiful Sunday today :)

spring do come true~~~

Happiness

yes, one of the random things that i stumbled upon these days

am i happy?

at this moment, i like to look back

i am on this road, an unknown road, i just started it

few moments ago i would still be thinking, hey i'm liking this...

yet, some thing encourage me to titled my head a bit and there it is

feeling of emptiness...

unsatisfied...

regret...

sad...

i am thinking, what if... would i be... ?

is this what i wanted to do?

this feeling is always there, we can't do anything for it

i am looking at other people, mashallah they are happy with what they are... even though it's not what they were planning before

what about me?

i was whining, muffling my screams onto the pillow, and stomping my feet...

yes, i WAS not happy

jan '10

wow, it's already 2010...

i started this blog since 2008, yet rarely to update

(who's going to read it anyway? :P)

anyway, mid 2009 i started my uni life

yes, university, finally

i have never expected to take this major, but whaddaya know?

and also in this country? it's beyond expectation, never crossed in my mind, ever

well, ehem... january was one of my busy month

it was, i would never expect this kind of things

yet Allah gave me chance to experience and learn from it, alhamdulillah

i had 4 exams, 3 in a row in 1 week

on that week, i tried my luck in advertising my room to others

and yeayy i got a respond, a positive one

but hey, wait a minute, where will i go??

i don't have a room, there was no response from the internet which i subscribed to... o my God...

well fortunately there's this family who's kindly enough to spare their extra room for me, i felt so blessed :)

hey, when will i moving out?

'we can pick you up at thursday night'

i was like

'sure, why not?' :)

dun dun dun, i had an exam on the next day, the one that i like the least -.-

so basically that thursday was busy;

- went out early morning to find landlord's office,

- had to wait outside in the cold weather... rain, snow (or was it ice?), etc for an hour cause a person whom i was waiting for got lost on his way,

- the thingy went well, and faster than i expected,

- so i came back and pack few things up, DONE! in a matter of minutes ;)

- i got picked up at 8 then settle in the temporary place,

woke up early to catch the bus cause i need to take my bike that i left in my previous place,

yet i was late by 2 minutes -.-

so... another 15 minutes to spend in the cold and wet morning,

arrived at the station, i couldn't find THE bus,

o God no -.-... then i took another bus which i had to walk few minutes from the stop near the place,

WHAT A DAY

and, well, i could do the exam, hopefully it will turn out good,

inshallah...

great things to start the year,

even tough it was tiring like craaaazy, yet i knew that Allah know that i can do these...

don't want to whine anything about my life at the moment, cause i know i am one of the lucky ones in this situation :)

alhamdulillah