Happiness

yes, one of the random things that i stumbled upon these days

am i happy?

at this moment, i like to look back

i am on this road, an unknown road, i just started it

few moments ago i would still be thinking, hey i'm liking this...

yet, some thing encourage me to titled my head a bit and there it is

feeling of emptiness...

unsatisfied...

regret...

sad...

i am thinking, what if... would i be... ?

is this what i wanted to do?

this feeling is always there, we can't do anything for it

i am looking at other people, mashallah they are happy with what they are... even though it's not what they were planning before

what about me?

i was whining, muffling my screams onto the pillow, and stomping my feet...

yes, i WAS not happy