No, this is not about shoes shoes.
This is meant, if I were you.
Another lengthy English post, please bear with me 'kay?
I watched several Asian movies last night, and boy what a night.
What I remembered the most were Hello School Girl, I know you know it.
And how I missed the times I watched videos; movies, MVs, you name them, with you.
It's one of the tear jerker, I didn't know whyyy I watched this last night.
My eyes went puffy in the morning -.-
Well, it's about a single mother and her daughter.
The mother has a cancer, typical Korean movie, and she kept it secret from the daughter.
However, the daughter knew and didn't let her mother know that she know. Confuse? Let it in...
So each tried to do the best to fulfill other's wishes without them knowing.
Well... you can think the end of the movie. That's why I said, TEAR JERKER.
And I am sucker for drama which revolves around family.
So, while I was watching this, I kept thinking of you.
Somehow the little girl resembles you, not in the physical way.
And the main topic in my head was, while I was her (your) age...
She is the only child, which you are right now at the house.
While I was your age, the house was never quiet.
Especially you were still a baby... well not a baby, still a lil kid :P
There were people in each corner of the house, in each bedroom.
I don't know how is it in the house at this moment, but I bet it is different than before.
She got picked up after school by her mother.
Well...
While I was your age, our mother picked me up. She was the one who offered it, most of the times.
Even when I was still in high school.
But we know that now... it's impossible, right?
And one thing that I remembered the most, that the girl hide her tears, the girl is really strong.
And I know that you are too.
Well bad days sometimes happen and you messaged me about it, yet I couldn't do anything except praying and wishing the best for you.
I kept thinking, if I was in your shoes, I can't always cope it by myself. I need my siblings with me.
I am sooo proud of you, you know?
And when you messaged me about the thing that got you excited, starts in December.
I was reallllly happy to know that, I am until now.
Because when I was your age, I was started to think about it too.
And boy how excited I was when it really happened.
You're a lucky girl, keep that in mind please.
You have your siblings and family who loves you and prays for you.
You have friends that you enjoy being around with.
Your wishes, most of them, came true.
And
You also have our parents for yourself now :P
As much as I wanted to be there, I just can't right now.
I love you.
You're the funniest little girl I have ever known.
And you're always be a lil baby in my eyes.
Do your best, STUDY, don't forget to pray, and love those around you.
And you'll feel the love back, even stronger than you gave to them.
I hope for the best for your school, I know you can do it.
Let's do exciting stuff whenever I am there okay?
Tell me what you want to do, and let's do it together if you want.
Love
