Sunday 31 January 2010

Happiness

yes, one of the random things that i stumbled upon these days
am i happy?
at this moment, i like to look back


i am on this road, an unknown road, i just started it
few moments ago i would still be thinking, hey i'm liking this...
yet, some thing encourage me to titled my head a bit and there it is
feeling of emptiness...
unsatisfied...
regret...
sad...
i am thinking, what if... would i be... ?
is this what i wanted to do?
this feeling is always there, we can't do anything for it
i am looking at other people, mashallah they are happy with what they are... even though it's not what they were planning before
what about me?
i was whining, muffling my screams onto the pillow, and stomping my feet...
yes, i WAS not happy

jan '10

wow, it's already 2010...
i started this blog since 2008, yet rarely to update
(who's going to read it anyway? :P)

anyway, mid 2009 i started my uni life
yes, university, finally
i have never expected to take this major, but whaddaya know?
and also in this country? it's beyond expectation, never crossed in my mind, ever

well, ehem... january was one of my busy month
it was, i would never expect this kind of things
yet Allah gave me chance to experience and learn from it, alhamdulillah

i had 4 exams, 3 in a row in 1 week
on that week, i tried my luck in advertising my room to others
and yeayy i got a respond, a positive one
but hey, wait a minute, where will i go??
i don't have a room, there was no response from the internet which i subscribed to... o my God...
well fortunately there's this family who's kindly enough to spare their extra room for me, i felt so blessed :)
hey, when will i moving out?
'we can pick you up at thursday night'
i was like
'sure, why not?' :)
dun dun dun, i had an exam on the next day, the one that i like the least -.-

so basically that thursday was busy;
- went out early morning to find landlord's office,
- had to wait outside in the cold weather... rain, snow (or was it ice?), etc for an hour cause a person whom i was waiting for got lost on his way,
- the thingy went well, and faster than i expected,
- so i came back and pack few things up, DONE! in a matter of minutes ;)
- i got picked up at 8 then settle in the temporary place,

woke up early to catch the bus cause i need to take my bike that i left in my previous place,
yet i was late by 2 minutes -.-
so... another 15 minutes to spend in the cold and wet morning,
arrived at the station, i couldn't find THE bus,
o God no -.-... then i took another bus which i had to walk few minutes from the stop near the place,

WHAT A DAY

and, well, i could do the exam, hopefully it will turn out good,
inshallah...

great things to start the year,
even tough it was tiring like craaaazy, yet i knew that Allah know that i can do these...
don't want to whine anything about my life at the moment, cause i know i am one of the lucky ones in this situation :)
alhamdulillah

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