I still see you

I don't remember the first time I saw her face.
All I know, she was her.

The first time I wore my glasses, 6 or 7 years old, was the first time when I felt the world is pretty.
I could see everything so clearly.
I could see her face then, finally.
She is her.

I didn't see it clearly back then, but she was always in front of me.
She went out and came back to us, to me.

And then it changed, we were walking side by side.
Hand in hand. I was able to grip her hand.
I told her once, I would like to walk on the sidewalk with her.
She nodded and smiled.

We went out, had fun and came back.

And then it changed again, we will be living apart for years.
I was in front of her, ready for the challenge.
I looked back one last time and I saw that she waved her hand.
She had tears in her eyes.

Suddenly, I questioned my life choices.
For years.

Now, I am always in front of her.
I am going out and come back to her.

She won't be able to walk before me, we won't be able to walk side by side anymore.
And we won't be able to walk together on the sidewalk.

However, I always look back and always hope to keep seeing her.
To see her face.
Face that reminds me that she is her.
She is always her.

My mother.

Comeback

No, I am not talking about singers that made a comeback.

I was referring about myself!
I am back!!
It has been 3 years, my goodness time flies.

If only I didn't have the epiphany of checking my blog, it was September morning in my office, then I would not be here.

I will try to update again, regularly.
As a lot of things happened to me for the last few years.
Memories... I was happy, sad, scared, you name it.
This is what we call, life.
We can't be happy all the time. Else, it's boring.

I miss you.

confessions of a random fan

It is going to be a long post... well yes I listen to K-Pop, I am not denying it.

I think it started around 2009, that's when I really listen the whole song and watch the MV.
Was it Gee by SNSD? I guess...
Me and my sisters watched it on indovision back home and we were like 'how many are they?', and 'she looks like the girl who played in Full House' *while pointing at HyoYeon* and all that jazz.

I knew there is another girl group that were famous before Gee, and I found out that it was Wonder Girls.
Sadly when I joined the K-Pop fans, they were in America and tried to 'conquer' the US market.
And their last song in 2008 was Nobody, which never really get place in my playlist, it was mehh for me.
Two Different Tears is also mehh for me, so I didn't give them a place in my laptop.

Then Be My Baby... their comeback song in 2011 attracted me a bit.  Their teasers are fine! So I downloaded the whole album to give it a go.

And boy what a worth-to-listen album... I even bought the original CD when I went home in April : p

My favourite songs are dugodugo... and Stop! and yes, SuperB.  I listened to the whole album whenever I commuted to and from my internship company.

But as a whole, it was indeed perfect album to listen during your free time.


They went on hiatus and then cameback with another catchy song, Like This.  It is an okay song but I have devoted myself as their fan so I downloaded the mini album and took a listen.

And oh-yeash I love them even more!

Best song? hands down it is... Sorry.

What excites me is this Japanese song they have in the new album, Wonder Love.  To me it is too catchy and too X-mas-y to ignore.  I listen to it whenever I bike.
Just head bobs, shoulder shakes and (bad) lipsync to the song make my bike ride EPIC : p

I follow them in KakaoTalk, yeap.
I listen to any of their song, at least one, everyday.
I anonymously read their threads in multiple forums, mmhm...
I congratulated SunYe's wedding plan and gave her best wishes... in my mind.

Back then I made a post about Onew, and how his all child-like made him attractive for me : p
Anyway... now I have this urge to follow YeEun.  Not in the stalker way.
I guess her short orange hair during Like This attracts me hahaha

She has this senior in school vibe, which is not famous by its looks but because her charisma and leadership.  Me, as a clueless junior, just want to follow her around and do what she did.
She's not too skinny, which is good.
Her singing voice is one of the best in K-Pop to me.
I believe I will be her fans if WG disbanded, she'll be okay on her own : )

Well I won't post her pics here cause I have too many favourites ahaha
google it yourself you lazy people!

longing

I never knew James Ingrams' songs, apart from songs in his Forever More album.
I, of course, don't listen to all the songs there.
Yet, there are 5 songs which I downloaded and sometimes put on repeat.

And when I listen to them, all I can think off is my mom.
My mother, ibu.
She introduced me to them, or him.
Back then, when she used to work nearby my junior high school, she drove and play this album on the loop. Well, this and also Ally McBeal's soundtrack.

Back then, when everything was so simple, for me.
Back then, when I enjoyed going to school and meet my friends.
Back then, when everything felt so right and comfortable.
Back then, when I got to spend time with her, in the car, singing along, eat some junk food, and all that jazz.

But, of course, everything must change, isn't it?
Nothing stays the same.
And everyone will change, no one stays the same.
However, forever more, I'll be the one who needs you.

How I long to see you, cuddles with you, kiss you, and go somewhere with you, just the two of us.
But, yes, these are not possible anytime soon.
And I hope this is only temporary... .

I listened to the voice record file which you or faadiya sent me about 2 years ago.
I listened to it when I need to hear her voice.
Because it's, quite, difficult for us to talk long enough now, isn't it?
How 2 years felt like much much longer, and everything changes now.

I don't know how to end this rambling.
But, see you soon, Bu.
*cium

If I put myself in her shoes

No, this is not about shoes shoes.
This is meant, if I were you.
Another lengthy English post, please bear with me 'kay?

I watched several Asian movies last night, and boy what a night.
What I remembered the most were Hello School Girl, I know you know it.
And how I missed the times I watched videos; movies, MVs, you name them, with you.

Then my attention was caught on this movie, Wedding Dress.
It's one of the tear jerker, I didn't know whyyy I watched this last night.
My eyes went puffy in the morning -.-

Well, it's about a single mother and her daughter.
The mother has a cancer, typical Korean movie, and she kept it secret from the daughter.
However, the daughter knew and didn't let her mother know that she know.  Confuse? Let it in...
So each tried to do the best to fulfill other's wishes without them knowing.
Well... you can think the end of the movie.  That's why I said, TEAR JERKER.
And I am sucker for drama which revolves around family.

So, while I was watching this, I kept thinking of you.
Somehow the little girl resembles you, not in the physical way.
And the main topic in my head was, while I was her (your) age...

She is the only child, which you are right now at the house.
While I was your age, the house was never quiet.
Especially you were still a baby... well not a baby, still a lil kid :P
There were people in each corner of the house, in each bedroom.
I don't know how is it in the house at this moment, but I bet it is different than before.

She got picked up after school by her mother.
Well...
While I was your age, our mother picked me up.  She was the one who offered it, most of the times.
Even when I was still in high school.
But we know that now... it's impossible, right?

And one thing that I remembered the most, that the girl hide her tears, the girl is really strong.
And I know that you are too.

Well bad days sometimes happen and you messaged me about it, yet I couldn't do anything except praying and wishing the best for you.
I kept thinking, if I was in your shoes, I can't always cope it by myself.  I need my siblings with me.

I am sooo proud of you, you know?

And when you messaged me about the thing that got you excited, starts in December.
I was reallllly happy to know that, I am until now.
Because when I was your age, I was started to think about it too.
And boy how excited I was when it really happened.

You're a lucky girl, keep that in mind please.
You have your siblings and family who loves you and prays for you.
You have friends that you enjoy being around with.
Your wishes, most of them, came true.
And
You also have our parents for yourself now :P
As much as I wanted to be there, I just can't right now.

I love you.
You're the funniest little girl I have ever known.
And you're always be a lil baby in my eyes.

Do your best, STUDY, don't forget to pray, and love those around you.
And you'll feel the love back, even stronger than you gave to them.
I hope for the best for your school, I know you can do it.

Let's do exciting stuff whenever I am there okay?
Tell me what you want to do, and let's do it together if you want.

Love

The world in my eyes

To be honest, the world is small.
For Indonesian people that is.

Everybody is somewhat related to everyone else.
We like to socialize, make ourselves busy, and... I don't know, we like to do more than just stay inside our house.

Join an organization? Why not?
You can experience more and meet new people that are more than you can imagine.

And there's nothing wrong with that.

another letter about love, this is for you Mochammad Reeza

I am sorry if it's in English, but I am sure you can understand this very well.

Cause you passed your English test toh? hihi...

I was literally counted down the days to post this.  And here it comes.

I think it's quite normal, for brother and sister doesn't really close with each other, I think.

Cause I know my friends who are.

Well, I am close with him... I am sure of that... I am.

Yea... well, to be honest, I don't really know you THAT much.  I bet your friends knows you very well, better than I do.

You're quiet, in my opinion.
I don't know you're favourite food, all I know is that you hates vegetables, any kind.
I think your favourite clothing line is H & M (?) at least that is what pops into my mind.
I don't know your favourite colour, so if I want to give you clothes as presents, my concious minds are in doubts in terms of the colour.
And, somehow, I think you like (or prefer) to spend your time outside of the house.  It's one of the things that I feel bad about but yeah you're old enough to do so.

O! and whenever you do something, you unconsciously opens your mouth.  And we always making fun of you.

You're, how to say this, famous among girls, I think.  Well I think you are being single is a no no, I have never seen you being single for long.  You're always in a relationship, and that's nothing wrong with that.

My heart was broken once by you, yet it was your decision and I can't say anything about it.

I came to this place cause I knew you were there, yeah I'm on my own now but that doesn't scares me.

Of course I was shocked when I knew what do you wanted to do, but that didn't last long.

I know you'll do great, and I am really happy that you know what you wanted to be.

Happy birthday.

Gefeliciteerd met jouw verjaardag, veel sucess, blijven gezond, blijven geluk, en blijven optimist.

I loooove youuuu~
I always hope for the very best for you, and you'll be someone who can make your parents, family, and friends very proud.

I am happy for you~

Kusjes!
Deil

kiss changes it all

A kiss is a kiss.
It's less physically intimate than a hug.
It's shorter than a holding hand.

Yet, it gives a huge different, if for both parties, it's good.
But if one-sided, it's a nightmare.

My early morning rambling ends here.

assumption, should I be happy about this?

I guess this happened yesterday.
Well, I was waiting for an exam.  I just sat there on my favourite place in the class, silently prayed that everything is going to be okay.  Then this guy, who sat 2 seats in front of me, looked at me and said.

'Can I ask you something?'

'Err, yes, if I can answer them.'

'Well I think you can, cause I think you are... kind of girl who'll get perfect score in everything.' 

Then he came up to me and asked few question about the subject of the exam, and I helped him... in some way.

First thing first, I am not THAT student.  I don't get a perfect mark on EVERYTHING I DO.
There are students who are much much much better, believe me, I know.


I don't know though, that wasn't the first time people came up to me and told me that.
Even the teachers, well, some said that I can take this particular course cause they believe I can do them.
Seniors! yeah seniors, they told me in front of the crowd that, I am not the kind of student who have to struggle to get good marks.
In my heart, deep down, I just shake my head and deny them.



Well, it is nice for people consider me that way.  Alhamdulillah.
That means I have... a good impression (?) and they believe me.
Hmm, okay... well, I can do whatever they suggested, I am capable, but the problem is, do I want to?


To be honest, I am an-easy-to-get-bored type of person.
I'll do everything in a good mood in the beginning, but then... the passion just disappear.
If I do whatever people suggested, I am soooo afraid I'll let them down eventually.

So yeah basically,
Dear people, who knows me or just passer byers, thank you for what you told me about me being a good student and all.
But sometimes, those words are just burden to them (well for me especially).

With love,
Me

Soon

Does anybody know Thumbelina?
Does it ring any bell to you?

Well, I just googled it and I found more information about it :P
The last time I watched this was back in junior high... I think.
A 1994 movie, fairytale from Hans Christian Andersen.

Basically, a children movie has beautiful songs, I admit it, I love them.
And for this movie, enjoy most of the songs.
But one particular song hit me when I accidentally stumbled on Youtube.

It's when the mother sang, she missed Thumbelina so much.
The evil toad kidnapped her, pervert toad!

I know that someone somewhere 

Someone's sure to find her soon 

After the rain goes there are rainbows 

She'll find her rainbow soon 

Soon my breaking heart will mend 

Soon a happy ending 

Troubles behind her I will find her 

Homeward bound, safe and sound 

And soon

It's short, but it just hit me right in the heart.
What can I say, an unconditional love from a mother.


Hint, the title of the song reflects me at this moment :)

I love you Mom

For my friend

Another blue morning, another rambling to write.
Bear with me.

I had a convo with my friend few days ago.
It was pleasant, because he is one of the people whom I can talk to about anything.
I know him and he knows me, err... we know each other.
The good side.
and even the evil side of us, yeah we know it, and we don't care how evil we are.
Nobody's perfect! Accept it!

I like talking to him, well for few things.
It feels comfortable, I don't know why at the beginning.
We kinda understand each other, which is good, both of us need someone whom we can talk to.
Now I realised that I'm more comfortable in telling stories to a friend rather than to family, it's somewhat true.

Well, for you.
Thank you for listening, even though I kinda bothering you with my stories and my worries.
You listened even though I caught you through skype or whatever at night, or even in the morning.
Thank you for somewhat commenting, you're not criticizing, that's what I like about you.
Thank you for being a good friend.

A letter with love, but not a love letter, especially for Faadiya Nurrahma

Hi there, I do hope you read this.
If you don't understand most of the things I wrote here, well... sorry, cause I feel more comfortable writing this way, so bear with me okay? :)
This is mostly from the bottom of my heart, it's not all of it, cause it'll take me ages to write it all out.

Okay, my lil sister.
Happy birthday.
You're not little anymore, you're bigger than me, really.
And that made my love for you is bigger as well.
You're the funniest young lady I've ever know, you're one of my fuel in life.
You made me cry, hate, but most of them are laugh.

You're teenager now, but still you're my little angel in my heart.
With puffy cheeks, protruded chin, and big puppy eyes.
You're still hugable and snuggable person ;)
There are times where you disappointed of me, and I am so sorry.
You always say, I miss you Teh, but I'll just say, awww...
But the truth is, I miss you too.
I do, I wanna take you to somewhere nice, have fun, like any sisters do.
But because of my choice to study abroad, we never have that kind of experience.
However, whenever I come home, even for few weeks, I will make it up to you.
Let's go to cafes, restaurants, or any place you want.

I know you're ill at this moment, but don't give up okay?
Even though I'm not there with you, but I'm here whenever you need me.
I'll support you, you know that right?
I may not the best-est sister in the world, but you are to me.

Teteh kangen dan sayang Faadiya.  Muahhhh...
Selamat ulang tahun.
Semoga impiannya tercapai, sukses, sehat, dan bahagia selalu ya Dek.
Jangan lupa solat, berdoa, dan belajar.

Teh Miril

my mistake

I consider myself as a one lucky young lady.
No emptiness I feel during the day, yeah I'm living apart from my family but so what?
It will happen to you sooner or later.


Money matter, I manage the outcome... apart on holiday :P
School, errr... I'm not the brightest student, I know people who are, but others sees me as one.
Friends, I have, don't worry :) well the closest one is living in other city, well bless her to hear my random ramblings.
Income... I had one before for the summer, and they still needs me sometimes.  So yeah I have a random(?) income if I can say it that way.
Family, we still keep in touch and they are always there for me.


The thing is, this is my own problem so if you feel the same way, please don't.
The thing is I, most of the time, forgot to say thank you for having these privileges.
To whom? To Allah, Allah gives and showers me with blessing.
But I forgot to say thank you, I just smiled widely like an idiot when I receives them.
Is it hard to say alhamdulillah my dear Ami? No, not at all.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord of the 'Alamîn


I heard about, if you say thank you, the one who gives you advantages will give you more.
I believe that, it's just sometimes human forgets easily, we forget things.


I'm so sorry if I forgot to say those words.
alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
because I remember to say it.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
for everything...


Allah's love are uncountable, believe that.

Thank you for the night Guys

I woke up at 9pm-ish yesterday, yeah I went to sleep at 6pm so what?
Okay, I had a slight headache... a huge one I guess, I wobbled on my way to toilet because of that.
Well, time went by quite fast then I got this phone call from my friend.
He asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and this guy, and I was like 'uuu why not? I need a fresh air anyway.'

Yeah I spent a good half hour to prepare and had lil rest till he called me again to meet up in centrum.
I swore I was like... tipsy while I biked there, I couldn't ride on a straight line.
I wished no police will stop me and ask me questions.
Anyway, I arrived safely and met them in a cafe.  I sat down with them, ordered a drink, and laughed our asses off about stuff.

When the other guy went to the toilet, I had this conversation with my friend about our 'promise'.
I emphasized that WE HAVE TO DO IT or else... well, it's nothing illegal, don't worry.  I just need a friend to talk to.
He was like 'yeah why not, I'll prepare everything, you just come in and we'll have a chat.'
Then he said something that really hit me.
'Once I was talking with X (our other friend), we talked about random things and ended up talking about you.'
I said, 'O yeah? Like how?'
'Yea we said something about, 'if you talk about what we are talking about right now to Ami, she's probably already knows about it', like that.'
'Uh huh.'
'And I said to X, 'yea you know what? She knows about everything here, even she knows the real me, cause I told her everything'.'
'True.'
'And then we said something in common.'
'Spill it Bro.'
'We said 'yea she knows about everything, but none of us knows about her'.'
That made me think, that's so true.

I know about people, some people that I never even met, I know slight about them.
I overheard from someone or even they accidentally spill out the beans to me, I know about it.
But none of them knows about me.
They enjoyed about me being their recycle bin or whatever they like to call it.
But I'm okay with that, I'm a listener.  A total listener.
I prefer to listen other people bragging about their life, I prefer being their shoulder to cry on when their life is a bitch, and I accept their blabbering about random stuff.
I accept those.
After that I'm thinking, 'I do have problems myself, but by listening to these... I consider my problems are not as huge as yours.' this is what I always think about.

I keep my problems to myself cause I don't want to burden people to listen to it.
Maybe also because I don't want any critics about how I should live my life, etc.
Yeah basically I'm a listener, that's it.
If you want to know about me, you should work hard for me to open my mouth.
Cause I dare you to listen to it, I think any normal person won't be able to handle my life story.
No one... I think.

So yeah, that night went well.
After had something to drink, we went to eat kebab and talked trash about stuff.

Thank you Guys, this is what I need right now, people to hang out with.
We might talked shit about ourselves, and might hurt each others feeling.  But after that, we totally forgot about it.
So what?

O! And I found that I was able to bike on a straight line after that, weeheee...

Can't wait for our 'promise', okay Friend?

HELLO?

SHINEE, they said hello.
Girls out there, I don't care whether you're single or not, answer them! QUICK!

Open your door!
Cause maybe JongHyun will come with... that box on his hands... I'm not sure what that is but yeah :P
Maybe TaeMin will give you a hand-made paint doll... I guess that is though.
Maybe Key will give you A RING! O MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME KEY???
Or! Maybe it's MinHo with a BIG white teddy bear and his oh-so-cool car that will drives you anywhere you want :) ermm, a place where you can register your marriage maybe :P

BUT maybe Onew will come with flower, which I'll gladly accept it.  Period, no excuses.  Really I will.
Onew, it doesn't matter if you only bring flowers to me.  I don't care I accept you.
Even more, if you come to me empty handed, I'll accept you, who you really are.  Peace out Boy.
And just so you know, the door where he was going to knock... is my door :P
haha kidding.

They look oh-so-cute in the MV... reminiscence of nuna nomu ippo.
Where they were so lovable and huggable and snuggable :D
What I also like is they are smiling... awww I'm melting.
I can't help but smile as well, especially to you-know-who ;)

There's nothing wrong with Shinee.

They are talented, period.

They are talented boys who sings and dances in front of our faces and make us grin from ear-to-ear.

So, yeah, I'll give your hello to the Shinee boys :D

Spazzing-mode-on... like really.

Never expected to be fangirl-ing over them

I'm in a spazzzzzzzzzz mode!
I was lurking around, well not really, I was watching We Got Married Chuseok Special, where the 3 idol couples are competing with each other to find who's the strongest(?).
Well, before that I was like... hmm, WGM... yea, whatever.
To be honest, I used to like WGM, especially when it was Alex and Shin Ae.  They both are beautiful, sweet man and strong wife together... made ma d'aawwwww all the time.
Now, since they changed the format, it doesn't really appeal to me.

Ehm, after watching that special episode, I kinda hooked with this couple.

Yeap, KhunToria.

Thank you to my little sister who is telling me to download their episodes.  That encourage me to googling and find websites to streaming online.

I watched their first episode though, and I thought that Nickhun was quite... fake.
He was too kind, too nice, and too cute to be a man. That's purely my opinion though, don't kill me or anything.

And now... dun dun dun, they're cute couple. Period.
I love Victoria, she's a girl next door type, friendly older sister, and funny.  O, and she scared easily, she can yell her lungs out and make your eardrums go damn wild.
I cracked up whenever I watch her on WGM or Invisible Youth, she's well random at times and really entertain us.

Nickhun... well he's cute, so cute.  He has big round eyes... a puppy eyes that you cannot resist.
Tall, build, and I hope well mannered man.  So, yeah, definitely a husband type kind of man for me.
His shocked expression is funny for me.  Mainly because Victoria randomness.

They both foreigners in a country, they both are not native speakers, they are entertainers, and now they're 'married'.  It just too cute to be true.
I even replay their episodes, and smiled like an idiot while watching them.  Oo my life...

Nickhun is playful, likes to tease Victoria, especially because they way she speaks.
So, yeah you go girl, he deserves a hit on the head! Bad mackerel!

For a new couple in WGM, I think that they have more skinship than other pairings.
And it looks natural for me, AND makes me jealous.

I just want to capture this.  Hahaha.

I love their couple hoodie here... well, you can't really see it but it has ears on its hood.
I WANT IT SOOOO BAD, especially for this fall, yeah huh.





Okay, maybe because of their looks it also encourage me to support them more.
Damn this world with good looking people!
Nah, I think, there's nothing to be hated about them, so I want to see them more in WGM.  Or even in real life, who knows? :P
Even so, I'll support them wholeheartedly.  Don't worry.

In the end, I just want to say, they're lovable.
And they succeed in entertain viewers.  And for that I give them thumbs up.
Best wishes for their success.

In one of their episode, I liked the song 'I'm in love' by Narsha.
It's a sweet song, you should check that out in my MIXPOD.
I think this represent what they are showing in the show.  They falls in love.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...

Don't worry about me and go away

I'm not a big fan of 2NE1, especially when SHINEE came into my life :P
ONEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...
Ehmmm, I know that their style is different than other idol girl groups out there, and that's what makes them loved.

Well, they just made a comeback with 3 new songs, yes three... at the same time.
If you follow KPOP nowadays, they're so into autotunes.  Not all of them, but most of them.  And I personally hate it.  Sorry T-Pain.


2NE1 has 'Clap Your Hands', 'Can't Nobody', and 'Go Away'.  Hmm, to be honest, I like one out of three.  Better than nothing eh?
Those are good songs, I like 'Clap Your Hands''s choreo, when they clap their hands... yeap, and catchy reff part as well.
In 'Can't Nobody'... I like the MV, they look so damn fierce and I like it, thumbs up.  Their style, cool things in the MV, yup! Not really fond of the song though, cause autotunes much, o! except Minzy's part.

"Cuz I’m so bad bad

But I’m so good good

Yeah I’m so bad bad

And I’m so hood hood!"

and she shook her thang in the MV... you go Gurl!

I just realize she's younger than me... world turns upside down at the moment -.-

Personally I love 'Go Away', not the MV but the song itself, I even surprised myself!

This happened after I watch the live version on Inkigayo, and I really love the choreo!

People dances around and then dances in sync? yumm...

And they looks like having fun on stage, that's what I like about it.

They don't have to look cute, or sexy, they just being themselves and have fun with the backup dancers.

O, and they have cure backup dancers as well! I heard that they're twins 0.o

Can't find the best cut for the other guy though :P, isn't he looks like a mannequin here?

Thumbs up for this performance.

If you haven't watched it, please do, it's a recommended performance.

And ow! I forgot to mention the fierceness of the song, well actually CL said 's***' a lot but who cares.  Especially 

Pretending like you’re more sad

Pretending you’re cool to the end

All you do is act a fool

You ain’t shit without your crew

Yo Gurl, you're hot as fire!!!

The things is, I like 2NE1, as a group they're unique and deserve title of performers.

They can dance and sing, basically entertain us.

They are talented, period.

But, sometimes I think each member should be given opportunity equally.

Like Bom, her voice is great, she's a good singer, but she always given a chorus part.  Why YG?

And Dara, she's a decent singer... I think, but her voice is always got autotuned.  Too bad.

But, as whole, 2NE1 is one of the best KPOP group nowadays.

No doubt about that.

WIMP!

that's what I have to say about certain people,
like O my God give them more spirit or something to do more -.-

you, yes you, WIMP!

Kan iemand mij helpen... ?

To be honest until next week will be my busy week.  Am I loving it? Are you kidding me? O my God I love it so much, no deny on that.
I love being busy, so I have reason to do something; such as, not being at home, or won't do particular activity.

But for, it's even encourage me to do something more than I expected.
When I believe that I won't be able to do, but hey, I can.
Alhamdulillah :)

Do I need help from someone? inshallah I can manage, thanks.

Busy day

I don't mean to show-off or anything, but this is the truth.  I am busy, I am.
Especially this week, I don't know about next weeks but yeah, I can imagine that.

my basic schedule, ehem!
I have class from 3pm till 5pm, okay that's mandatory, I can't go anywhere at that time.
Well this morning (at 10am) I went to centrum and visited one restaurant to discuss about something. Then I am here now, in the library, sitting still until my ass dozes off.
Right after class, I have to go to Indonesian restaurant and offer them our space in next Saturday event, okay maybe it'll take less than one hour, I hope.
Cause at 6pm, or before that, I have to attend this registration event by Indonesian embassy. Uh huh.
It'll go on until 8pm, and I hope I CAN go out before that, because at 8pm I have skype meeting with KPU to discuss about PPI Belanda meeting this Saturday.
But! I have to be at small discussion about the Saturday event's design right after the registration thing-y.
Oh my...
At night, around 11pm here, I promised my aunt to skype with her... oo I hope the other skype meeting ends before that though.

I really hope for the best today, and the rest of the week.
Cause I know I'll be busy like, are you kidding me? o my God give me time to rest!
so yeah, inshallah.