Soon

Does anybody know Thumbelina?
Does it ring any bell to you?

Well, I just googled it and I found more information about it :P
The last time I watched this was back in junior high... I think.
A 1994 movie, fairytale from Hans Christian Andersen.

Basically, a children movie has beautiful songs, I admit it, I love them.
And for this movie, enjoy most of the songs.
But one particular song hit me when I accidentally stumbled on Youtube.

It's when the mother sang, she missed Thumbelina so much.
The evil toad kidnapped her, pervert toad!

I know that someone somewhere 

Someone's sure to find her soon 

After the rain goes there are rainbows 

She'll find her rainbow soon 

Soon my breaking heart will mend 

Soon a happy ending 

Troubles behind her I will find her 

Homeward bound, safe and sound 

And soon

It's short, but it just hit me right in the heart.
What can I say, an unconditional love from a mother.


Hint, the title of the song reflects me at this moment :)

I love you Mom

For my friend

Another blue morning, another rambling to write.
Bear with me.

I had a convo with my friend few days ago.
It was pleasant, because he is one of the people whom I can talk to about anything.
I know him and he knows me, err... we know each other.
The good side.
and even the evil side of us, yeah we know it, and we don't care how evil we are.
Nobody's perfect! Accept it!

I like talking to him, well for few things.
It feels comfortable, I don't know why at the beginning.
We kinda understand each other, which is good, both of us need someone whom we can talk to.
Now I realised that I'm more comfortable in telling stories to a friend rather than to family, it's somewhat true.

Well, for you.
Thank you for listening, even though I kinda bothering you with my stories and my worries.
You listened even though I caught you through skype or whatever at night, or even in the morning.
Thank you for somewhat commenting, you're not criticizing, that's what I like about you.
Thank you for being a good friend.

A letter with love, but not a love letter, especially for Faadiya Nurrahma

Hi there, I do hope you read this.
If you don't understand most of the things I wrote here, well... sorry, cause I feel more comfortable writing this way, so bear with me okay? :)
This is mostly from the bottom of my heart, it's not all of it, cause it'll take me ages to write it all out.

Okay, my lil sister.
Happy birthday.
You're not little anymore, you're bigger than me, really.
And that made my love for you is bigger as well.
You're the funniest young lady I've ever know, you're one of my fuel in life.
You made me cry, hate, but most of them are laugh.

You're teenager now, but still you're my little angel in my heart.
With puffy cheeks, protruded chin, and big puppy eyes.
You're still hugable and snuggable person ;)
There are times where you disappointed of me, and I am so sorry.
You always say, I miss you Teh, but I'll just say, awww...
But the truth is, I miss you too.
I do, I wanna take you to somewhere nice, have fun, like any sisters do.
But because of my choice to study abroad, we never have that kind of experience.
However, whenever I come home, even for few weeks, I will make it up to you.
Let's go to cafes, restaurants, or any place you want.

I know you're ill at this moment, but don't give up okay?
Even though I'm not there with you, but I'm here whenever you need me.
I'll support you, you know that right?
I may not the best-est sister in the world, but you are to me.

Teteh kangen dan sayang Faadiya.  Muahhhh...
Selamat ulang tahun.
Semoga impiannya tercapai, sukses, sehat, dan bahagia selalu ya Dek.
Jangan lupa solat, berdoa, dan belajar.

Teh Miril

my mistake

I consider myself as a one lucky young lady.
No emptiness I feel during the day, yeah I'm living apart from my family but so what?
It will happen to you sooner or later.


Money matter, I manage the outcome... apart on holiday :P
School, errr... I'm not the brightest student, I know people who are, but others sees me as one.
Friends, I have, don't worry :) well the closest one is living in other city, well bless her to hear my random ramblings.
Income... I had one before for the summer, and they still needs me sometimes.  So yeah I have a random(?) income if I can say it that way.
Family, we still keep in touch and they are always there for me.


The thing is, this is my own problem so if you feel the same way, please don't.
The thing is I, most of the time, forgot to say thank you for having these privileges.
To whom? To Allah, Allah gives and showers me with blessing.
But I forgot to say thank you, I just smiled widely like an idiot when I receives them.
Is it hard to say alhamdulillah my dear Ami? No, not at all.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord of the 'Alamîn


I heard about, if you say thank you, the one who gives you advantages will give you more.
I believe that, it's just sometimes human forgets easily, we forget things.


I'm so sorry if I forgot to say those words.
alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
because I remember to say it.


alhamdulillahi rabbil alamin
for everything...


Allah's love are uncountable, believe that.

Thank you for the night Guys

I woke up at 9pm-ish yesterday, yeah I went to sleep at 6pm so what?
Okay, I had a slight headache... a huge one I guess, I wobbled on my way to toilet because of that.
Well, time went by quite fast then I got this phone call from my friend.
He asked me if I wanted to hang out with him and this guy, and I was like 'uuu why not? I need a fresh air anyway.'

Yeah I spent a good half hour to prepare and had lil rest till he called me again to meet up in centrum.
I swore I was like... tipsy while I biked there, I couldn't ride on a straight line.
I wished no police will stop me and ask me questions.
Anyway, I arrived safely and met them in a cafe.  I sat down with them, ordered a drink, and laughed our asses off about stuff.

When the other guy went to the toilet, I had this conversation with my friend about our 'promise'.
I emphasized that WE HAVE TO DO IT or else... well, it's nothing illegal, don't worry.  I just need a friend to talk to.
He was like 'yeah why not, I'll prepare everything, you just come in and we'll have a chat.'
Then he said something that really hit me.
'Once I was talking with X (our other friend), we talked about random things and ended up talking about you.'
I said, 'O yeah? Like how?'
'Yea we said something about, 'if you talk about what we are talking about right now to Ami, she's probably already knows about it', like that.'
'Uh huh.'
'And I said to X, 'yea you know what? She knows about everything here, even she knows the real me, cause I told her everything'.'
'True.'
'And then we said something in common.'
'Spill it Bro.'
'We said 'yea she knows about everything, but none of us knows about her'.'
That made me think, that's so true.

I know about people, some people that I never even met, I know slight about them.
I overheard from someone or even they accidentally spill out the beans to me, I know about it.
But none of them knows about me.
They enjoyed about me being their recycle bin or whatever they like to call it.
But I'm okay with that, I'm a listener.  A total listener.
I prefer to listen other people bragging about their life, I prefer being their shoulder to cry on when their life is a bitch, and I accept their blabbering about random stuff.
I accept those.
After that I'm thinking, 'I do have problems myself, but by listening to these... I consider my problems are not as huge as yours.' this is what I always think about.

I keep my problems to myself cause I don't want to burden people to listen to it.
Maybe also because I don't want any critics about how I should live my life, etc.
Yeah basically I'm a listener, that's it.
If you want to know about me, you should work hard for me to open my mouth.
Cause I dare you to listen to it, I think any normal person won't be able to handle my life story.
No one... I think.

So yeah, that night went well.
After had something to drink, we went to eat kebab and talked trash about stuff.

Thank you Guys, this is what I need right now, people to hang out with.
We might talked shit about ourselves, and might hurt each others feeling.  But after that, we totally forgot about it.
So what?

O! And I found that I was able to bike on a straight line after that, weeheee...

Can't wait for our 'promise', okay Friend?

HELLO?

SHINEE, they said hello.
Girls out there, I don't care whether you're single or not, answer them! QUICK!

Open your door!
Cause maybe JongHyun will come with... that box on his hands... I'm not sure what that is but yeah :P
Maybe TaeMin will give you a hand-made paint doll... I guess that is though.
Maybe Key will give you A RING! O MY GOD ARE YOU KIDDING ME KEY???
Or! Maybe it's MinHo with a BIG white teddy bear and his oh-so-cool car that will drives you anywhere you want :) ermm, a place where you can register your marriage maybe :P

BUT maybe Onew will come with flower, which I'll gladly accept it.  Period, no excuses.  Really I will.
Onew, it doesn't matter if you only bring flowers to me.  I don't care I accept you.
Even more, if you come to me empty handed, I'll accept you, who you really are.  Peace out Boy.
And just so you know, the door where he was going to knock... is my door :P
haha kidding.

They look oh-so-cute in the MV... reminiscence of nuna nomu ippo.
Where they were so lovable and huggable and snuggable :D
What I also like is they are smiling... awww I'm melting.
I can't help but smile as well, especially to you-know-who ;)

There's nothing wrong with Shinee.

They are talented, period.

They are talented boys who sings and dances in front of our faces and make us grin from ear-to-ear.

So, yeah, I'll give your hello to the Shinee boys :D

Spazzing-mode-on... like really.